What’s Next?

This past week was a major milestone for the Go Girl.  The blog turned one year old!  It is hard to believe that I’ve been doing this for that long, but it has been a great year.  I could not be more grateful for all the friends I’ve made through this process-both in real life and in the blog world.  Here we are a year later and all I can think about it what’s next.

Buddy's Race

I did really great with my weight loss while in the Biggest Winner program.  BW gave me a passion for exercise and eating healthy while giving me confidence in myself.  Then summer hit and I started making excuses about why I could not eat right.  Crazy work schedules, pressures to eat out, lack of exercise time.  Pure excuses and nothing more.  I kept saying that I would get back in the habit of exercising regularly and clean eating once I got back to school and had a set schedule.

That was a big failtrain.  I kept on saying “This week is busy, I’ll start next week”.  Next week never came.  I’m not a fan of home scales.  When I would visit the weight management center at Covenant Health, the scales would tell me how much I weighed, in addition to saying how much muscle, water, and fat pounds I had.  There would be some weeks where I would gain a pound on the scale, but would have lost two pounds of fat.  I learned to not live by the number on the scale and just go on how I felt.

I’ve been feeling sluggish all week and my jeans are fitting a little tight and just hopped on the scale.  As the digital number popped up, tears began to flow.  I lost 37 pounds during BW and as I stood on the scale, the realization that I had gained back 26 pounds.  I couldn’t believe it.  Bad eating habits and lack of exercise really added up. 

The 2012 Biggest Winner Team. Betcha can't find me.

I cried and cried and then turned on the Biggest Loser marathon show and cried some more while I watched the contestants finish a marathon.  I changed my life just like theirs, but then failed in keeping it off.  I genuinely did not know I was packing on the pounds that fast.  As I hung my head in shame and embarrassment, I made a promise to myself.  I will NEVER be that person again. 

So, as soon as I hit publish, I’m hitting the road and going to get my sweat on.  I’m tired of excuses, I’m tired of still being fat, and I’m tired of saying I’ll start next week.  I know that I am capable of losing the weight because I’ve done it before.  Keeping it off is my struggle. 

I will get this small again.

 

My apologies for the negativity, but this is me being vulnerable.  Blogs aren’t just big rays of sunshine all the time.  There is a real person behind each post in your Google Reader.  Almost exactly a year ago, I started this journey and got off path.  Here I am, one year later, and the journey begins again.  Today is the day and I’m living my dreams.

Your turn!  How are you doing in your weight loss?  Do you think that losing it or keeping it off is the hardest? 

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11 thoughts on “What’s Next?

  1. The Biggest Loser has a way of making us all want to cry, but if you’ve done it once, you can do it again! If it was easy, then everyone would be supermodels! Good luck in your endeavors! Let the frustration be your motivation!

  2. Hey girl! I found your blog through Skinny Runner, and I am so glad! I am going through kind of the same thing right now … I lost over 60 pounds about a year a half ago and now I have gained like 15 back. I am really struggling to get back into a healthy eating/fitness routine, and it sucks! We can do this!

  3. I found you through SR too, and was naturally interested because we share the same awesome name! I like your blog and look forward to following it. I started my weight loss journey almost 5 years ago and have since lost and kept off 130lbs, but not without some ups and downs! I just ran my first marathon a few weeks ago and gained some weight training, so I’m focusing on losing those extra pounds before I start training for marathon #2. I think the hardest part of losing weight is loving ourselves no matter what! We are our own worst critics and whether losing or maintaining, one thing I have learned that no matter what the scale says, I have to love my body regardless 🙂

  4. I found your blog via SR tonight. I am a runner and blogger in Chattanooga. It is so exciting to read about and “meet” other Southern bloggers. Glad to be a new follower of Go Girl!

  5. Just saw your blog via SkinnyRunner! I am a Knoxville girl as well 🙂 Thinking about signing up for the full marathon in April – is that what you just registered for? Good luck with continued weight loss. I find it very difficult to keep weight off, and sometimes I even have a 3 lb weight gain after a half marathon, that takes me weeks to re-lose. It’s hard to lose weight and fuel for distance running!

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