Thinking back on #NuunHTC

It feels so good to finally have written all of my Nuun Hood to Coast recaps.  The weekend gave me a lot of time to reflect on my experience and seeing the journey in words on a screen really gave me a new perspective.  I know I included a lot of mundane and seemingly minute details but I wanted to document everything so I could look back on it. 

Looking back on the trip and after coming back to Knoxville and getting back in the swing of things of a new school year, I thought a lot about my trip.  I shouldn’t venture to say that I have regrets at all, just things I would have done differently. 

I did not get a chance to bond with most of the women.  We were thrown into a huge group of people that we only knew based upon what we saw on the internet.  That, to me, was very intimidating.  I’m fairly shy at first and have some trouble opening up when I feel vulnerable in certain social situations so I kind of kept to myself during the trip.  I talked to my hotel roomies a lot but I think it is because two of them were moms and had more life experience and understood more of why I shut down. 

I’m not an alcohol drinker so I was usually the only one without a beer in my hand which left me feeling out of place.  Plus, we were all female running bloggers.  I am a female (duh) so I had that in my favor.  But my blog is not big, popular, or even widely read but I am a blogger.  And I was definitely the bigger girl of the bunch which took away some of my self esteem even when I knew it shouldn’t.  After a few tearful phone calls back home to my sweet boy I had the confidence I needed to get through the relay.  Standing out was definitely my biggest concern and worry during the weekend and it should not have been.  But at the end of the day I am a runner. I may not be a fast runner or a competitive runner but I am a runner and I deserved to be there. 

Looking back I feel as though I sort of came off as rude or ungrateful and that is the last thing I wanted to do.  I was extremely thankful to be there and be a part of such an awesome community, I just wish that my personality could have reflected that better.  I did not get a chance to bond with my vanmates like I had expected to but like Harmony said in her recap, everything happens for a reason. 

Speaking of Harmony, she was one of the nicest ladies I met while there and even though we didn’t talk a whole lot in the van, I think we had this underlying and unspoken vibe that we both felt the trip.  She’ll probably never know how grateful I was for her friendship and guidance during the trip.

Towards the end I ended up talking to Jocelyn and Steph some and they made me feel a lot more comfortable.  Overall I have no regrets but there are definitely things that I would/will do better next time.  I will not be inside my little turtle shell, I will make it a point to have a meaningful conversation with everyone there, and I won’t be so guarded. 

Again, thanks to Nuun for an amazing trip and wonderful memories.

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8 thoughts on “Thinking back on #NuunHTC

  1. I think I was very much the same way as you last year. I was super quiet and I didn’t drink very much (at all?) last year because of some reason (I forget)…and I wasn’t sure if I had really made good connections with people. And let’s be honest, in four days, that is really hard to do!! But I think that I have continued to stay in touch with a lot of the bloggers from last year, and that made this year easier! I encourage you (only if you want!) to stay in touch with people through out the year.

    I hope you stay in touch with ME in the next year! I was so glad I had the opportunity to talk with you the last day…you are such a nice and awesome person (and you like country music so that makes you extra cool)…we must do a Half Marathon together soon (Christine included)!

  2. So… a lot of people felt the same way 🙂 I am so sorry I didn’t get to spend a lot more time with you, but I do think that we spent more relaxed time than during much of the relay! Sofa-sleeping and seat-sharing often engenders a special closeness 🙂 You are such a good, sweet soul, Kelsey. Do stay on my radar and keep me on yours! And if you’re ever near San Francisco, do let me know… for real!

  3. GREAT POST!!! There is so much anticipation and {self-imposed} expectations when doing a relay, especially with NUUN and people you don’t know {who appear to be more qualified, etc}, but you nailed it…we are ALL runners and ALL have something to bring to the table. I’m so happy for the connections you made, and if your experience was anything like mine, the connections continue to strengthen over time!

  4. Kelsey, I just want you to know that, while you were very quiet, you NEVER, EVER came off as ungrateful or rude. You were always smiling and definitely always listening and taking it all in. I just assumed that you were a shy person. I do regret not reaching out to you more and making you feel more comfortable. I hope we can continue to stay in touch…

  5. this made me sad. I hate that you felt that way. I figured, as Corey said, that you were shy. Honestly, I was incredibly intimidated as well-but I will also admit I am the mouth of the south and have no problem speaking. You NEVER came across as rude or ungrateful. I said it before and I will say it again, it takes more guts to do something like this while still in college. Running, fitness, blogging, etc. were no where on my radar. i partied-a lot. you are a super woman! xo

  6. I TOTALLY get how you felt! Not a big-time blogger, not a fast runner, not a drinker, and shy to top it all off. I thought you were so sweet, and I was glad that we got some time to talk during breakfast. 🙂 Hope school is going well for you!

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