Welcome Back to Blogland

Hello out there!  Can anyone here me?  It is hard to believe that it was April when I last posted.  I’m sure none of you have even noticed, and that is okay too.  I’ve missed this little piece of internet space and I’m glad to be back.  There are so many reasons that I took a hiatus from blogging and to be honest it was much needed.  Although my blog is definitely not my job (I make absolutely nothing and rarely even agree to product reviews), it started to stress me out.  I would often find myself thinking I had to do something just so I could get a photo opp or a blog post out of it.  I became worried about what everyone else was blogging about or promoting and lost sight of why I even started this blog in the first place.  As soon as I realized that it was becoming a chore I knew I needed a break.

Thankfully this break allowed me to have a completely carefree summer.  I worked a fun summer job that allowed me to work with tourists on a daily basis in my hometown.  Yes, my job was driving a short schoolbus full of river tubes but it was so fun and I really enjoyed it.  This break also allowed me to find my writing voice again.  I got to the point where I didn’t look forward to blogging because I felt the need to produce certain content or document every race.  Hopefully my personality comes through in my writing and people can see that I blog because I love documenting my life, my weight loss struggles and my adventures of learning to become a stronger runner and athlete.  photo (1)

One other very important aspect of taking a hiatus has to do with weight.  Back in the spring I finally stepped on a scale to see a number in the 100s.  199 to be exact.  I had been chasing that number for months and I finally saw it.  I even weighed myself three more times just to be sure the scales were right.  But, you know what?  It didn’t feel like I thought it would.  Sure, I was happy, but I thought that somehow that number would all of a sudden make me feel better.  It didn’t.  That was the last time I saw that number and haven’t seen it since.    The measures it took for me to get to that number were not realistic.  Taking three fitness classes a day and pounding out the miles are not something that is sustainable long term.  It would be impossible for me to follow a strict eating and workout plan like that forever.  I try to always remain positive on this blog.  I share my struggles but always keep a smile on my face and have a “hey, it’s okay” attitude.  There’s nothing really wrong with that except that eventually that facade eats away at you.  I didn’t feel comfortable putting my true and raw feelings on my blog for fear of looking like a failure.  I didn’t want to write about when I sat on my couch and stuffed my face with three bags of microwave popcorn and four candy bars, and three bags of jelly beans.  That’s not inspiring.  I didn’t want to write about eating a peanut butter milkshake every day at work because there was a dessert shop next door.  That’s not motivating.  I didn’t want to write about the immense lack of self confidence I felt when I tried on my clothes after a binge.  photo

But this summer I had some great blog friends reach out to me and I was honest with them in my struggles.  They didn’t judge me or criticize me or make me feel like a failure.  They were supportive and encouraging.  This made me realize that it is okay to share struggles and stumbling blocks with others because chances are that someone else either feels the same way or has felt that way before.  Struggling does not equal failure.  It took a long time for me to realize that.

Even with a summer of fun and a summer of not so great eating, I am mostly happy with where I am right now. I’ve raced a few 5ks and have still been able to remain in the under 30 minute range.  I have faced my fears of long runs and have completed two ten milers.  My body is strong and I am fit.  It actually surprises me that I haven’t been as intense and my weight has gone up yet I still remain just as strong as I was during spring racing.  Hopefully I will do a post on that soon.  I’ve backed off on my workouts and haven’t been as obsessed as I have been in the past.  These days I’m mostly logging miles but in the coming weeks will be adding a new cross training regimen to my routine.  That excites me.  I have several big races planned for the fall including a half marathon this weekend with my Momma and my best friend, Brittney.  Girls weekend!

As always, thanks for listening/reading.  Surely to goodness none of you even care that I haven’t posted in four months but if you do then thanks for lending  your eyes and ears to my word vomit.  Y’all are awesome and the blogging community has brought so many wonderful people into my life.  I look forward to writing a catch up post so you know where I’m at in life right now.  Have a great Wednesday!

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14 thoughts on “Welcome Back to Blogland

  1. I have missed you!! And I have been wondering where you were. I’m sorry though that I did not reach out. I’m glad your back at it and that you had a good summer!

  2. Very happy you’re back, and also extra glad that you listened to you and took a break when you knew something wasn’t fun anymore. We all have to do that. I’m excited to hear from you more and to find out more about the real you – be you, and I guarantee that you are not the only one out there facing the same struggles.

    You’re awesome, and I can’t wait to learn more about your fabulous self! Take care!

  3. I kid you not I thought of you on my morning run today. I’m slowly getting back to running (just 3 mile runs this week and then next week i’ll start upping 4 or 5) . I kept thinking how hard it is to build back up my base and how my pace isn’t where I would like. thats when you randomly popped in my head and how far you’ve come these last several years. Then I realized I hadn’t seen a blog post from you in awhile (yet you’re on instagram) so I just concluded you might have been disconnected from my bloglovin as occasionally that has happened. Low and behold you posted! Talk about random.

  4. I’m so glad you are back!!! Like you, I have taken a long blogging break. My last post was in May. About a month ago, I made my blog private, because I wanted it to be gone, but didn’t want to actually delete it. I go back and forth about whether I want to blog or not. On the one hand, I enjoy it; but on the other hand, I feel like I can’t say what I really want to say, and there are certain people in this world that I don’t want seeing my photos and watching my every move. Long story. 🙂 Anyway, I don’t think that I will blog again, but I still love keeping up with my favorites!!!

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  6. I guess I missed this post 😦 I was wondering where you went, but I’m glad to hear all is well and you were just took a break to refocus and I’m glad you’re back. Your story, your words, and your dedication are inspirational to plenty, I hope you believe that! Can’t wait to see what your cross training regimen is all about! Keep up the good work! xoxo, ganeeban

    • You are always so kind!! That really is so thoughtful of you to say. Looking forward to writing more. Thanks for making this girl feel GOOD 🙂

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